07/07/2011

Dear ancestors! Dear mothers and fathers! Fuck you all! Cheers!

Dear ancestors! Dear mothers and fathers! Fuck you all! Cheers!
Who fucking hell gave you the right to advise and judge us? (And by the way dear readers, don't think that this is a manifestation of my hidden childhood insults or anger, I write it all in a very ironic and a bit rebellious mood)
So, mums and dads, who gave you this shitty right, to give us, completely (judging by the experience) different generation, advice? How dare you give us advice when you're not okay? You are not diligent standard of living, and your bitter experience is not an example and instruction for others, it archives of your stupidity! Just in the majority of yours, you would like to realize your unfulfilled dreams and goals using such a little life, that you feel is your personal property and think that have rights to dispose this life as you please, as your children!!! Who told you that you know better? (Who actually decides what is right and what is not (besides us)) Your parents?Tit for tat, ha? Or how? Or do you think if you HAVE TO support us for a while, and share with us everything that you have then you have right to make decisions for us and tell us what to do? Don't forget that no one asked you and didn't force to give us birth! You call it - the responsibility, that we don't understand or don't admit, but you never hear when we tell you - this is not a manifestation of responsibility is just some silly antics! Do you think we say so only for the sake of dispute? For the sake of disagreeing? For the sake of sake? Oh yes, your precious responsibility for your creations! Yours (as many are fond of saying), unselfish, unconditional love! unconditional love? But remind from 18 years (or sooner) about how much you give to us? how it hard contain us! how many good things you do for us! How strongly deny yourself the pleasures of life for us! This is not a manifestation of conditionality? Maybe you just like to to pretend the victims, because thanks that you always have an excuse of all your failures? Your unconditional love as well as maternal instinct (which actually doesn't exist) just your stinky excuse.
How can we talk to you  if all of what you hear you say "from whom you picked up this?" or "your speech - is lost upbringing" you cannot even imagine that our words can be OUR thoughts, indeed. At the same time you (and we too btw),want to be perceived as you are. fucking ridiculous. Believe me, in this our generations the same. But only in this. 
Our generation finds drugs as a cure of this horrible form of life, from this way of life that you and your ancestors formed so many years. 
Our generation prefers anorexia as a standard of beauty, our generation have to to fuck in the stinking toilets just because we have nowhere else. 
Our generation prefers to sleep outdoors in own vomit than go back to you. Yes, our generation doesn't speak, our generation tweets. Our generation is a backlash to all your aspirations, desires, and attempts. 
Our generation is your mirror. 
Our generation is created to destroy and crush all that you have built for so long. You've reached all the best, and what's next? You have reached the maximum, you take away everything, you have lived all! and made up decorated, finished life-script for us. But you have missed and always miss one thing, the fact that we want to live in our own way. You have done everything. You didn't saved for us nor place nor imagination nor even money. Only chronic disease, robots (formerly of whom, wrote only in the books), and rotting planet filled with genetically modified food.
so what do you want from us?
Earth - the planet of losers.
But well, I'd like to give you my advice.
Go on!
Just continue to love creatures of your hands,
by your unselfish love.

27/06/2011

love is for the living




21/05/2011

Success and pride! or simply - the failure

I've finished course of English. it was fun, amusing, exciting and very very helpful(as you can see below)!!!I am constantly amused my class and got the nickname "Queen of the lateness" because of the 3 months I arrived in time only one time.
 teacher said that she loves me but...


haha.yeah. so better not talk to me

23/04/2011

The trees


i dont know why i love trees and wood so much , but it attracts me, is something very close to me
ha yes and even band name is very symbolic





















21/04/2011

my horripilation

he speaks so tenderly, so unclear, so calm and peacefully, but he nervous and embarrassed and stutters and coughs and mumbles, and doubted, and melts me! melts me again and again. every day. every foggy morning, every night, every sunrise, every hour, every minute in this hour, every moment of every second of this minute. whenever i breathe the air or cigarette smoke. he is everywhere. even in each letter of this word.

18/03/2011

when in forest of hair arises some questions

Which came first? idea or material? some kind of material has created an idea? but if so, then material could not be just like that, it had to be invented. So initially it was supposed to be an idea. So you can dig deeper and deeper, and these two things will always surpass each other. for example me, i was just an idea in material minds of my parents and after a stormy night of love after nine months i've turned into in material which over the years began to create ideas out of which comes material (sometimes) ha
Or can be idea was physical and visual, and material was judiciously and spiritual? i feel that it was something complete, something one. Like time and existence. Not something that we imagine, but something that cannot be understood just like that. Although in essence, people are exactly same wild combination of contrast and opposites, consists of material (flesh and blood, bacteria...) and mind (but not in the sense mind as the brain, or animal instincts and emotions that i'd rather classify to physical and material. i mean the mind as the highest point of spirituality. soul, spirit, feelings, etc.)But then, by this, we have - material idea and ideological material. Anyway - Like begets like. and if you will learn yourself, then eventually you will find the answer. (btw many important - to know the question)
Be attentive to your thoughts. any idea can be put into reality because if it was not possible, then those ideas never should came to a head. But if something is already there, hence it already exist.
But you know what? Fuck it! Fuck it and never mind. Cuz all this doesn't have a sense if you cannot feel it. and begin to feel it only possible when you love. (oh and more, don't forget about the question - what is love and what this word differs from those descriptions that you relate to it)
hah. this is my shitty formula