21-22-23 id like to die in agony

I will never be 21 again. 
just higher and higher. older and older. though why I'm exaggerating? I heard that up to 25 years, people continue to grow. oh please, not just in the width
several hours to 22 and I should take stock of the past year. I hate to think about it (because usually I can not remember anything good) but do it with own will
 just later something becomes clearer.
Well, let's start with the bad:
 

• during the year I didnt find a decent job for the soul
• I still live with my parents
• I head over ears in debt 
• my dog ​​is very slowly and painful dying all this year 
• I ruined my teeth, started sluggishly flowing bulimia and I'm losing hair
• I didnt finished repair in the room and my "bed" is not even similar to bed
• I forgot how to be alone 
• future still not clear and scary for me
• Now it seems to me that what I want is quite impossible, but sake fuck, I know that it only seems so
• my baby is not happy 
• I tried not good enough, I initially at 21 didnt set desired goals for the year, and now all of this helter-skelter

 And now the good side in 21:

• I threw out all the trash. I threw out everything that I do not need. not even drop of doubts nor of regrets second. and this is very ambiguously

1 - in the material sense, I really got rid of the huge amount of rubbish, even the chairs, table and  piece of the bed
2 - I got rid of friends. true. and I put it in the good side because they distracted me. to distract me, it's very easy, I like to pay attention to everything around. but with the appearance of really significant priorities, I realized how much of time (and alot of money too) I spent on all sorts of parties, clothes, booze, etc. I cant say that I dont like it. I just got tired of it. it's boring, it's very limited things. I certainly love to have fun and this is the best for today that I can do, but getting something much larger, stronger, nicer and deeper than fun you instantly discover the price of this happiness, and all becomes clear
 + You cant have many friends, usually the term "many friends" called loneliness. (Im confident that many of you know what that means), friend, he is one, and I have my friend. so what if he is also my lover!?

• I began to actively and diligently make music and the funniest thing, I see in this fraction of future
• T-shirts
• I had 2 best weeks in my life, no, better to say I had 2 weeks of life, which will soon continue, and I believe that will continue over and over again
• compared with last September I lost 10 kilograms. I'm still fat but is a little better
• I still hold on tradition to do at least one video every two months
• I realized that important thing is not to fuss and did not in a hurry. everything that is yours, it will be yours anyway. sometimes you dont even need to specially do something and do not want, and then you start to get
• simultaneously with the above, I assert that all efforts are worthwhile. if you try- everything as you want that in the end
• and the most sweetest and beautiful, I have the coolest thing in the world, in my life is love, and I'm not even going to explain anything here.

• I have desires, goals, and slowly but surely I'm coming.